Just back from a week away in sunny H____ – 5 days of rain, a heavy cold and no WiFi. First time properly chilled out in about a year. We’d appt Tuesday first thing to agree treatment, dosage etc. HR at work are up to speed already, but have a decision to make re informing my manager of BP2 diagnosis. One to ponder…
And so in the end it’s into the system, take the meds and maybe things will improve. Fingers crossed…
I last posted here almost 4 months ago and, to be honest, it wasn’t until I reread that and the posts before it that I could have told you what I had been blogging about then. In fact I was really surprised what hte contents were! They belonged to somebody else and it feels very much like that’s true for this blog as a whole. I’ve prevaricated long enough to know that I probably won’t ever post here again as, to me, the Chuckles is dead and gone. I’ve stopped therapy, almost f****d up my and my family’s life for good and spent the last few months being the life and soul of the party with almost everybody I know. Whilst a few shadows of depression have surfaced recently I’m pretty confident I’m able to control anything that life throws at me.
And so I’m moving on from here too. Sometimes things change – for better or worse – and all you can do is keep moving. Good luck, hugs and kisses to everyone I’ve ever ‘met’ through this blog, it’s been good. x
thursday wil be the first therapy appointent that I’ve kept in about 3 weeks. I’m thinking of chucking it in as I can’t see it’s really making a huge amount of difference. Chances are I’ll bottle it and carry on going, god knws why – probably to avoid having to have a confrontation! I’m sure it’s the best thing, at least I htink it is. I’d rather spend the time doing anything elsde realy.
It’s finally within listening distance (whatever that means) – Adam Ant’s new album (double album?) is due for release next month. It’s been on the horizon for the last year or two, but for various raesons has been pushed back several times. But now, it’s almost here. And he’s looking damn fine too! It’s been way too ong that music has missed al th pageantry, theatre and general swashbuckling swagger that Adam Ant brings. It’s perfect timing as I’m not getting a ny sleep at all at the moment and just have asuch a need for some creative external input. Soo much energy at the moment but it just feels like life is being shackled by circumstances beond my control. So to have some exciting new music and all that goes with it will be great, hopefuly inspirational and energising. Sooo ecited. typically the Daily Mail
journalists knobheads have had a pop – probably because he isn’t a squeaky clean, pre-pubescent boy band wannabe – or a typical middle-england daily mail reader!
Trying to get a few things moving with a few other artists/writers too at the moment, it’s all a bit hectic and up in the air as organisational things aren’t my strongest suit/. But hopefully soon that’ll happen which will be great.
Life’s crap at the moment due to other people’s chronic illnesses. I’ve jsut deleted the whle post as it was a whinge-fest of pity-me in the most cringing tones. Tings are tough but not that bad and I feel like a God amongst men anyway – just one with a sick family. Maybe a little bitter and twisted but mr alcohol and mr tobacco are helping out with that. However may be away from the blog more than usual due to calls on my time – boring boring but needs must etc.
I celebrated completing my tax return last night with a few hours of turbulent dreams about family members drowning. Work today will be carried on in a zombie-like state.