I didn’t mean to have a break from posting here at all but life took over and here I am sometime after my last post – can’t believe how long really. Things have been mad here the last few weeks. Work has been deteriorating rapidly into a mess of stress and tension which has pretty much just fuelled my downward spiral. Add in a crap diet, alcohol and pills and it all went Pete Tong last week. Still not 100% over the whole things but I feel like my head’s back above water for the time being. The weird things is that it’s like I’ve had 2 parallel lives going at the same time – one confident and fwd looking and one depressive and hopeless. I suppose the only way is up at the moment. So am looking forward a day at a time and getting through the daylight hours as best as I can. At least I’m sleeping through until 4 or 5 in the morning now. And therapy has helped – which shows there’s a 1st time for everything.
It would have been my brother’s 34th birthday next month. For the first time since he died I’m thinking of marking the occasion somehow – get to grips with everything I suppose. onwards and upwards maybe.
Apart from that everything’s peachy! 
Am thinking maybe to try and get back into a blogging rhythm might not be a bad idea too so will wrap this up and be back soon hopefully.
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