All Gone Wrong

cracked last night, spilt the beans about everything to my better half and slept for 6 hours due to a mix of red wine and pain killers. Today I feel like crap and am half regretting saying all that. She’s texted and phoned several times today and it’s all my fault, I know she’s v concerned and at the end of the day nothing’s changed. And I’ve insisted on coming into work today because I don’t want space to think today. Although I have agreed that if I’m not 100% by Monday I’ll make a n appointment to see the GP. I’m aching like a b*****d today too, serves me right.
Therapy carried on last night from previous weeks, I hate talking about “splitting”, about hearing voices and about distorted reality. About finding it hard to know wich things were real and which were part of the internal movie that was running. We ended up discussing time travel – I’d read something about how ghosts could be impressions left in time due to time not exisitng, as if the universe is solid state. It would explain hearing voices. I don’t know what I think really, not at the moment. Other than that I need a break from everything some time soon.

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5 responses to “All Gone Wrong

  1. Alison

    “I hate talking about “splitting”, about hearing voices and about distorted reality. About finding it hard to know which things were real and which were part of the internal movie that was running.”

    I don’t comment much here if at all but read often. I experience this and it’s something I brought up in an email with my psychiatrist at my last appointment. I struggle so much to explain it and even understand it myself. I hope you find some inner peace soon.

  2. aethelreadtheunread

    I hope things improve soon.

    Take care,
    A.

  3. thank guys, hope you’re doing OK too!

  4. Hey – you’re not alone. You describe something simular to what I’ve been experiencing lately. I blame the dingy time of year. In the absence of bright, external distractions, the mind creates its own ‘amusements’.

    Hope it gets better (and sorry this comment is so late, if you read it at all)
    K.x

  5. Thanks Kate, hope things are getting better for you too 🙂

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